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Saturday, May 12th, 2007
Saturday, May 12th 2007	im scared to death, i dont want things to end, ah stressed out afraid i hope everything works out Current Mood: scared
Tuesday, April 24th, 2007
Tuesday, April 24th 2007	yah i think im going crazy. &&& basically, i need some more sleep maybe some me time. i need to think Current Mood: apathetic
Monday, April 23rd, 2007
Monday, April 23rd 2007	YUP YUP YUP <3 i love my life. mmm, i just love where i'm at. &&& no, its not easy, and perfect, and yes, i get sad and angry, but the hapiness weighs out more.... definitely. my mom got me the car of my dreams, she loves me lol. my best friend conspired with my mom and beau to give me the best day ever, she loves me. and although my boyy and i fight sometimes he's an amazazing boyfriend and he loves me. and you know what? I LOVE THESE THREEEE TO DEATH, be jealous, cause theyre my lifeeeeeeeeeeee<3 p.s. its a BMW 330i 2001 blackkkkkkkkkkkk car so sick Current Mood: happy
Saturday, April 14th, 2007
Saturday, April 14th 2007	mmm long time no update! so basicallly; life is love life is fun life is amazing. i got a haircut, its oh so very cute and crazyyyy and i think its having a huge effect on my personality its a new me. its a crazy carefree happy-go-lucky fun loving i kinda dont really care what you think about me kinda me. springg break has been blah. whatever PROM is coming up, i got a kickass dress and a gorgeous date, and so basically im stoked. i love my boyyyfriend beyond words. anddd srsly, i love my friends. and i need a job and i almost have my car but i really need a job because i need some moneyyy &&& ive definitely grown upp this past month insanelyy. &&& i feel so much older. yahhh weird well thats about it ill update later. <333 Current Mood: content
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Wednesday, March 28th, 2007
Wednesday, March 28th 2007	dont ever lose that light in your eye.<3 living life is a lot easier when youre happy all the time and you gain the self confidence tto live everyday with smiles making people laugh being totally honest making out infront of everyone without a care, laughing at stupid things with your amazingg friends because life and high school is too short and when its all over i wanna know i livedddd it to the fullest and i didnt hold back. i have like a very vibrant aura i love you i love my friends i love sally i love my mom i love my siblings i love my loverr logan hale i love love i love my school i love me [i know weird to say but im actually going to be proud of myself] i love teaaa i love music i love life and im happpppppppppy im one happy and lucky girl. Current Mood: happy
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Sunday, March 25th, 2007
Sunday, March 25th 2007	you only live once im starting to gain a lot of confidence im not going to lie its really hard at first but im actually loving myself. i love it. im going to be more of a happy person all the time. i was with someone who was always in a bad mood and they just showed me that its so much of a waste of time. i loved going to the street fair with my cousin and boyfriend i love my cousin edwarrrd a lot. hes one of my best friends i love my family a lot. and even my dad who recently made me feel like the worst daughter everrrr but thats okay i still love him 'i just dont like much of what he says and does logan and i walked out on a check during dinner on fri but it was a total accident nobody noticed not even us i felt so baddddd hahahahaaaaaa but it was funny. life iss so much bettter when you laugh things off fuckkkkkk being angry sad nervous scared hella yea to the happy loved excited optimistic i m so happy and for once in my life its because of meeeeeeeeee love love love love Current Mood: accomplished
Tuesday, March 20th, 2007
Tuesday, March 20th 2007	wakeeee uppp? im learning to love myself more. its really hard to gain confidence when you really didnt have some to start with Current Mood: blank
Saturday, March 17th, 2007
Saturday, March 17th 2007	sweet dreams i've been extremely tired lately and outta the loop and i fear im becoming pessimistic again but i wont oh no not this time i just want to be happy and with some sleep i will be i just go too fast like my mind goes too fast for my body and sometimes you just gotta stop & breathe sleep tight Current Mood: tired
Thursday, March 15th, 2007
Thursday, March 15th 2007	i am the happiest i have ever been everrrr i got it back good mood day #2 i love my life Current Mood: amused
Tuesday, March 13th, 2007
Tuesday, March 13th 2007	yahhhhhh i slept today. i was so tired sick and weak that i could not go to school like no way in hell. i liked sleeeping in it was nice to sleep i mean everything with people is amazzzzzing with my family with my friends with my boy with my classes everything is so amazing but me, im not doing so hot. i just havent taken out caroline time and its finally taking its toll on me ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i should start taking care of myself more. loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee Current Mood: tired
Thursday, March 8th, 2007
Thursday, March 8th 2007	you know that feeling when you cant figure out the tune or lyrics or artist or name of a song and it bugs you because you know it you just cant figure it out? and then finally you figure it out and you get that feeling that wonderful feeling cause you got it all figured out. well thats what today and yesterday was like all yesterday night and all today morning i was searching my brain looking for some explanation to why, why was i so lucky? why was i the girl he chose? like come on it may sound completely insane or stupid to you but i could really careless i just wanted to know why but then in sixth period it hit me harddddddddddddddddddddddddd. it doesnt matter. THATS THE ANSWER he loves me and really thats all that matters people get so caught up in trying to find it all. welll i found it all now all i got to do it put it to work. all the matters is the people i love. i feel alive. i love it Current Mood: alive
Sunday, March 4th, 2007
Sunday, March 4th 2007	thinkinggggggggggggggggg Most of the time it's hard for you to believe something unless you see it right before your eyes, caroline. However, the period you are in now may be pushing you to try and understand some of the mysteries of faith. Though you probably aren't one to do this very often, you may be feelings some kinds of mystical impulses that make you think about the nature of your beliefs. Can you believe it? The process of starting and stopping, and then starting over again is a big part of learning something new. Imagine a baby learning to walk. Imagine yourself learning a foreign language. Encouragement from within and never giving up are two things to remember! If you have enjoyed some exercise recently, or renewed a former practice that brings you a feeling of well-being, get comfortable with the sense of accomplishment that you earn with good decision-making. my hororscopes are correct yay?! Current Mood: contemplative
Sunday, March 4th 2007	whats the story morning glory?? peace love && caroline. i can be your fresh breath of air life is going to be a lot easier now so love your life im justtttt a genious and this post has no point unless youre me and understand all of this. love love Current Mood: crazy
Saturday, March 3rd, 2007
Saturday, March 3rd 2007	mmm it really has been too long and its about time for a much needed update. basically i've realized that i've grown up more this week than i have in my entire life. my childhood is slowing slipping away but im not sad im just content with the fact that i was lucky enough to have a wonderful childhood and that my mom yes mom my mom not my dad raised me with such morals but still gave me my freedom so im the person i am today. Im glad ive figured out that before you can take care of anyone else you have to take care of yourself, you have to love who you are. Life is too short to not take risks , to be pessimistic bitchy and mean all the time, to not go out with friends and have fun all the time. Its too short to spend your time worrying and dwelling on things that either happened or never will and with that i think anything is possible if you at least try i mean cause if you at least try and take a risk & it doesnt work out then you know it wasnt possible but you know for sure. You have to love the people who treat you right and forget about the people who dont not everyone is always going to love you or even like you. So forgot about them and dont base your mood on others dont let people bring you down base the way you treat people and your attitude on your life and your happenings just because everyone else is having a badd day doesnt mean i should to. Love your friends, make a lot of friends be sweet and nice until ppl give you a reason not to be but then dont go all bitchy on them ignore them. Remember people like to be told theyre loved, I love my friends so much and i have a lot of them. Tell your family you love them Im done with treating my siblings like mean they deserve a nice older sister they love me so much and i love them just as much my mom is my everything we fight and she irritates the hell out of me but i dunno what id do without her. my dad well i know he loves me but i understand that he cares more for himself and that doesnt make me mad anymore cause i know he loves me. and lastly love falling in love you cant put an age on it and i hope that you can fall in love you cant tell me im not in love cause i am and logan dow hale makes me feel like the most beautiful girl in the world and he makes sure i take care of myself and i love him so much. i live for people like logan my mom my siblings and DUH my best friends especially sallly who keeps me sane. who actually listens to my stories who i love alot; basically life is too short not to be happy. not to live it up, not to love with your whole heart. i want to sleep in my swimsuit and grow my hair out and love and smile until my cheeks are killing. i think ive figure out life a little bit better and if you read all of this youre amazing and i hope you have an amazing day Current Mood: creative
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Friday, February 23rd, 2007
Friday, February 23rd 2007	loveeeyourrlifeee mmm, i'm tired of caring so much. i really am trying out new things. for lent; 1. im going to start believing in myself 2. im not going to let people or things bring me down 3. i'm going to say what i mean and mean what i say 4.im NOT going to be a downer, no complaining pessimistic wayys. thats my new lent ideals. i know im not "giving anything up" but im trying to gain even more. a lot of my friends have been down lately, and im trying to helpppp. i love them so so so much. && family is getting better. i want to be a sweeter person. like pink lemonade sweet. and boyfriendddd, well he's the only boy who has ever cared for me like this and when im with him i always feel pretty. and i love this one. i need to sleep more, worry less. love more, care less. talk more, whine less. listen more, push away less. be confident more, be afraid less. fall more, hold back less. L O V E Y O U R L I F E How much longer must you remain in this dream Before I finally figure out if you're insane or a genius atmosphere wrote that song for me? well logan says he did. Current Mood: contemplative
Thursday, February 15th, 2007
Thursday, February 15th 2007	i worry i wonder all the time why worry<3 i worry too much. about what people think. about how what i do affects everyone. about what everyone wants. about my life. about my family. about my friends. about the future. i worry wayyy too much. and i dont want to anymore i want to be more carefree. i dont want to know anything about life. i just want to live. mmm. and in response to sally's comment i know there are many people who love and care for me a lot. like her and my parents my whole family all of my friends. i justttt meant for a boy. lol he's the only boyyy who had ever made me feel pretty. or loveddd. or just right. plussssssss i know sally loves me lol loveee herrrrrrrr Current Mood: apathetic
Monday, February 12th, 2007
Monday, February 12th 2007	get the girllll<3 longg time no update. well for starters ive found balance &&& ive found a lot. one thing: nobody has ever cared or loved me as much as logan. he stopped by to bring me soup eventhough i was sickkkk. he spoils me and i love him for that. two thing: my friends no matter how much we drift, are always here for me so ill always be here for them. i love them and we could never truly fall out because i love them too much. three thing: i never want to end like my parents. i never want to be like my mother. its not that shes a badd person but i dont see things like she does, i have a totally different perspective. four thing: no matter what people break you or at least try and how much how hard or if they even do depends on you. five thing: i want to change the world. i want to care. six thing: getting good grades ais paying off seven thing: i love my life and who i am. i can be my own best friend...<33 haha days of recollection thing. Current Mood: artistic
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Monday, January 29th, 2007
Monday, January 29th 2007	tell it like it is every thing is okay now. ive compromised. ive come to terms. everything is alright. i think prisila really made me feel amazing about myself last night. and that helped me. more than she will ever know. i feel loved again. i love again. im in love with him and life. <3 Current Mood: calm
Sunday, January 28th, 2007
Sunday, January 28th 2007	im lost. im sad ashamed confused and upset. but im also strong. and i dont let anyone see me cry. i chin up and try to fix things. and sometimes i wish i just cry everything out on someones shoulder. but usually im the shoulder to cry on so im afraid to cry on someone elses. i dont want to lose anyone. i love everyone. i need them i need my friends i need my family i need my best friend i need him a lot. i need to stop worrying i need to chin up i need to fix everything i want to breakdown but i cant and i wont optimism good karma and kind soul. thats what i believe in. Current Mood: melancholy
Saturday, January 27th, 2007
Saturday, January 27th 2007	lately. all i need is balance. its like i have none. i cant make everyone happy. ive understood that. but cant i at least make someone happy? cause i really havent made myself lately. &&& i feel like i have let down so many people. im trying really hard not to. and i dunno. i just want it to be more simple. im sick. im tired. but i persist. because i love my family , my friends , my boyfriend. and i honestly believe that i can. but first i need to take care of myself. i need to drink more water. i need to clean my room & do all of my homework. i need to call back the volunteer search and do something lifechanging with my life. then im going to work out my relationships with people. which i have been doing lately. i have a lot of optimism in all of this. but for now i just need people to understand that im trying really hard. i want to find God. i want to become the change that i daydream about all the time. just give me a little more time &&& i know i can do it. Current Mood: optimistic